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Yep. That’s pretty much where I am at.

I FINALLY made it to Nashville!!! After months of preparing and driving about 26 hours, I am officially here in Nashville. I am living in the one city in the US that I would want to be in. I absolutely love this city. I even love the culture shock of living in the South after living in the West Coast for so long. People are genuinely nice and it kind of freaks me out. I don’t know how to deal with it, haha.

But on to more important things.

I have decided to defer starting school until the fall. I had been thinking about for the last couple of weeks but after I had a bit of a melt down on Sunday, I made the decision to put school on hold for just a few more months. It was just a bit too stressful financially after just moving across the country. And there was just something that I was not 100% at peace with. For me, having peace of mind/heart is very important. 0f5140b92c86e9330ec772eb8fa25db5

So, now I am taking time to just be me. To settle into my new city, to enjoy life, find a decent job and enjoy what will soon be my 25th year of life. I feel as if I have just been on a massive run for the past couple of years without actually taking time to breathe and live life. I have tried to rush things for so long that now, before anything too serious happens in my life, I want to enjoy my freedom and be present in this moment.

I am learning how to be content in this moment. I am quite the dreamer, so I get caught up in my goals and plans for whats ahead that I tend to miss out on what is happening in the here and now. I also compare my journey to those around me. I see a bunch of my friends either getting married, having babies or beginning their careers and for a brief moment I felt as if I had missed something. I felt as if I was slacking and inadequate. Yet, truth is, my journey has never been the “status quo”. I’ve moved so much in my life and I’ve had to deal with some rough times early on in life that I grew up a bit faster than friends my age. I’ve always been one to do my thing even if it went against what is expected of me. I just can’t do normal. It kills me. I need space, I need freedom, I need adventure. And I fully believe that everything happens for a reason and that at the end of the day it all comes together in some crazy way.

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Every moment of my life (and yours) has been planned out and even though we may not understand everything that we have gone through, it’s all for the best. So, how all this will work out? I have not a clue. What will happen next? Who knows. That’s not for me to worry about. What I do have is this very moment right now, and I have resolved to make the best of it.

I have a couple of things that I am now working on and a few thing in mind, so we’ll just see what happens with all of that.

Here’s to having an unforgettable year and learning how to be in the present.

Ramblings from a day of packing….

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I found a picture of me standing by an airplane ride at knotts berry farm when I was about 2 years old.

For me, I have always been drawn to flying. I’ve always had the desire to just be able to fly away. to discover new lands. to meet new people. to see new things. to eat new food. to be in the new.

In about 28 hours I will be headed towards the new once again. tomorrow i shall pack my car up and wednesday at the crack of dawn, i will be headed east. off to start a new chapter in my ever evolving life. here’s to being the new kid again. here’s to discovering a new city. here’s to new roommates. here’s to working with new people.

here’s to the new.

little by little, its starting to become real. i have wanted this for so long, that it has just been a goal to work towards. i had a full time job and a part time job, i worked my ass off for months. most of those moths, hardly anyone knew. its quite difficult holding a secret such as this. i wanted to tell the world right away but i needed things to settle before making a solid announcement.

now, in just a few hours, the dream ive held so dear for the last few months will become a reality.

at this moment, im exhausted, excited, anxious, stressed, overwhelmed and a bit excited. im a bit of a hot mess really.

but this is happening.

it’ll be just about 3 years exactly that I moved to Australia. i guess January is just my moving month. starting out the new year in new places. yet, this time, i feel it is different. i must say that i have matured and grown quite a bit compared to where i was when i boarded that plane at 21. i was such a naive fool. i had no idea what i was doing. it was my first time moving out of my parents house. the first time i moved without anyone i knew. the first time i moved to a different country. crazy is a bit of an understatement.

now, i dont feel as much of a fool. though i may not know people out there nor do i know what shall be, i am expectant of the things that are to come.

it is time to live my life. to be in a place with like minded people. to be in a city where, crazy people like me, are pursuing their dreams. to live in a place with history and culture.

its time to start living out my dreams.

though i know it wont be easy, i know that it will be worth it.

i guess its part of having a gypsy soul like mine. my whole life, the longest we lived in one house was like 6 years. the longest we lived in one city was like 8 years. we have moved so much that i dont really know where to call “home”. and honestly, im ok with that. its become part of who i am. there is something in me that cant stay in one place for too long. routines and the familiar suffocate me. living in the same place, with the same people when theres a massive world out there to discover, just slowly kills me.

i need adventure. i need to explore new places. i need to meet new people. i need space. and it’s truly a need.

so now at the brink of my move and my 25th birthday in a month, i’m off.

to my dearest las vegas…although i am ready and excited for my time in nashville, i wll truly miss you. it has been a bit of a love/hate relationship. you are a city unlike any other. people from all over the world come to see you show off in so many different ways. i have met some amazing people in the time that i have lived here. people, that have truly become more like family to me. people, that have taught me a great deal and have loved me all in their own unique ways. i see many of my friends going on with their lives, getting married, having babies and pursuing their dreams, and i am truly happy for them.  with them, i leave a bit of my heart. i will miss them and think of them often. everyone has a different path and its a beautiful thing to see how each of our lives intertwine in one way or another. some people will forever stay in my life and some people will just move on but they all have had an impact on my life. i fully believe that there is something to learn from each person that comes into our lives. every person has their own story and has some sort of portion to add.

its actually a lot harder to say good bye than what i expected. for so long, all i wanted to do was to be able to say that i was done and run as fast as i could yet now, i see the good that came out of what i first believed to be the worst thing  that could have happened to me. i have leaned and grown so much. who i am today would not have happened if we never came to this crazy town. i truly am grateful for every experience and for all that i will take with me out of this long, insane season in Vegas.

‘tis bittersweet indeed.

but now it is time. time to start another journey, time to begin a whole new season. its not like anything that i have yet encountered. there are many unknowns but i know that in some crazy way, it will all work out for good just like this time in Vegas has worked out for good. if only i would have realized that at 16, lol.

and with that i am off to sleep. there is much to do in my last few hours here.

it’s time.

(if you read all of this, i do apologize, i needed to vent and this my best way of doing so)

My 500 Words Challenge

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So for the next 31 days, I’ve taken the challenge to write at least 500 words each day (you can find out more at http://goinswriter.com/my500words/).  The hope is to get into the habit of writing and practice. 

I’ve always been a fan of writing and I feel as if this will be a good foundation for the rest of the year. And now that I’m on about to move in a week, I should have some good stuff to write about. 

So, here’s to the new year. Here’s to pursuing dreams, enjoying everyday life, conquering fears, new beginnings and having one hell of a time at it. 

I truly am excited for what this year will hold. There are so many unknowns that lay before me but I could not be more ready and expectant for it all. This past year I came across my “Quarter Life Crisis” and it was quite a rough year. Although I did accomplish quite a few of my goals, it was not in the easiest of manners. But, I survived. 

Now I am a few days away from packing my car and heading out east to begin on a new journey in my new city. If I haven’t said it enough already, I am excited for all that lays ahead in this year. 

I hope that you have an incredible year and that you find the courage to pursue you dreams and live a life that you’re proud of. 

Cheers to 2014

-Bec