25 for 25

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As I was skimming through Pintrest the other day, I came across someone’s “bucket list” that they had made for their Golden Birthday. It inspired me to actually put some thought into what i want to accomplish with my 25th year of life. Of course, it’s is not limited to just the 25 things on this list and I am well aware that i may not be able to do some of these but hey, it’s worth a shot.

I am trying to live more intentionally and be more present in the current moment but the dreamer in me must also be able to run wild. I believe this will help me be a little more focused with my time and resources so that I am able to fully live out every beautiful moment that lies ahead.

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So here we go…25 for 25….

  1. Calm down and drink sweet tea
  2. Figure out & verbalize what my “dreams” are and begin to pursue them
  3. Start on degree
  4. Paris
  5. Make time to paint more/make things and express my creativity
  6. Blog more often and truly invest time into developing it more
  7. Join a gym
  8. Discover East of the Mississippi: the Carolinas, Georgia and NYC around Christmas time
  9. Be not so concerned with others opinions
  10. Purchase quality items-not just buy stuff because it’s cheap or on sale
  11. Expand Library
  12. Cook more at home
  13. Eat cleaner
  14. Learn a new skill i.e. take jewlery making class or how to crochet or change a flat tire (yes, I don’t really know how to do this)
  15. Explore photography
  16. Be more social and not so shy
  17. Grow more as a person in my identity and confidence
  18. Find a better job
  19. Be more generous, not only with my money but also my time
  20. Begin learning a new language
  21. Read more
  22. Go skydiving
  23. Finally get a tattoo
  24. Pay off credit cards
  25. Become financially stable

Some of them, I feel like I still need to clarify and expand as to what this will actually look life in everyday life but this will do for now.

So a year from now let’s see what has been done and where life has led us all.

And now it is finally here….25…let’s do this.

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YOLO…SUCKAS…YOLO…(i apologize for this, i just had a moment)

One month down…

Isn't she a beaut?!?
Isn’t she a beaut?!?

 

I’ve survived my first month in Nashville!!!

 

Time has already flown by so fast. I can’t believe a month ago I drove into Nashville without really a clue as to what would happen or even if this would all work. And now, I sit here, I still don’t know what’s to come but so far it’s all working out in some crazy manner.

 

The biggest challenge I’ve faced has to be the struggle with wanting to have clarity on what to do with my life. It’s been like a wrestling match, day after day. Wrestling myself to get all my $#!+ together and figure what it is that I am supposed to do in this life.

 

I have also come to realize how impatient I truly am. I have been wanting to know answers and get the answer right now. I want things to happen and have then happen already. I am so use to continually running that I find it difficult to just sit and be. I see roommates sit and read a book for a while. At first, I kept thinking to myself that it looked like such a waste of time. To just sit there and read. I couldn’t remember the last time I just sat still and read a book.

 

Today, I work in a few hours and I was planning to go run around doing whatever errands I could think of yet, I just needed to pause. Before I continue to bust my tail to somehow make myself feel as if I am “getting ahead”, I just need to stop.

 

Yesterday at church, the pastor was speaking of trusting God. He then mentioned this story about Mother Teresa.

 

“When John Kavanaugh, the notes and famous ethicist, went to Calcutta, he was

seeking Mother Teresa … and more. He went for three months to work at “the 

house of the dying” to find out how best he could spend the rest of his life.   

When he met Mother Teresa, he asked her to pray for him. “What do you want

me to pray for?” she replied. He then uttered the request he had carried 

thousands of mile: “Clarity. Pray that I have clarity.”

“No,” Mother Teresa answered, “I will not do that.” When he asked her why, she

said, “Clarity is the last thing you are clinging to and must let go of.” When 

Kavanaugh said that she always seemed to have clarity, the very kind of clarity 

he was looking for, Mother Teresa laughed and said: “I have never had clarity; 

what I have always had is trust. So I will pray that you trust God.” 

 

I don’t know of you’ve ever experienced what it feels like to have someone verbally slap you in the face, but that was one of those moments.

 

For so long, I have fought to just get some clarity. To figure out what it is I am supposed to do with my life. To have it all mapped out. It’s like fighting with the wind. Constantly exerting energy without really achieving anything but being left exhausted at the end of the day.

 

At this point, I just need to learn how to let go of clarity. To release the continual desire to know.

 

Simply trust.

 

I mean, look at what Mother Teresa did with her life by simply trusting God.

 

And so here I am, one month into this new journey learning to just shut up, sit still and be. It’s much more easier said than done and not what I was expecting but this is it.

 

Overall, though, I must say that I love this city and I am so glad that I chose to move out here. I cannot wait for spring to come so that I can do more stuff outdoors. I do complain about the cold a lot but I do have to be thankful that I now live in a place that actually has all four seasons. I do love me some Nashville!

 

I’m excited and expectant for whats ahead. I know that it will all work out, like it always does, and it will be quite the adventure to tell.

 

As of now, I thank you for taking time to read all of this and I do hope that you are enjoying the moment that you are in wherever this crazy life may have you.

 

Cheers to letting go…

it’s been a minute

yes, I realize that it has been a while since I posted anything. i could come up with all kinds of excuses but rather i have attempted in posting what i have been writing, yet i felt as if i had fallen short and that it was not worth putting on here. just saying.

but here we go….one more time…

i was sitting at the park the other day and wrote down some thoughts that i thought i would share:

in less that a month i will be turning 25. the age that i had feared and dreaded for so long.

25

half way through my twenties

about a year ago, i was terrified with the idea of turning 25. i felt as if i had accomplished nothing with my life and yet, i couldnt be more wrong. yes, of course, this is not at all where i expected to be at 25 but sometimes my expectations can be unrealistic and crazy.

i fully thought i would have my degree by now, working at my dream job and traveling the world habitually.

yet, that is not the case. my twenties began in las vegas then took me to australia for a year then back to vegas and now nashville.  a year ago, i really had no idea that i would be living in nashville. i really never even considered living here before yet, here i am

25

single and free. free to come and go as i please. free to do what i want. free to be

free.

so now, i await the second half of my twenties. whats ahead? where will i go? what will i do? all matters of inquiry rather than desperation.

for now, i am here.

now i can say that i am excited and expectant of whats to come. im no longer fearful of turning 25. i have a hopeful expectation of whats ahead.

cheers to 25

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