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Sooo…

It’s been a minute, hey.

To say it’s been a crazy, whirlwind, hellish year is truly an understatement. But here we are, July is sneaking in and to be quite honest, I can’t wait for this year to be over. But enough of the sob story.

Lately, I have actually been in a bit of a baking craze. Don’t ask me why but baking on the weekend has been my creative outlet. It’s one thing that truly brings me joy. Now, I’m not really a fan of eating the pies (that’s where the friends & fam come in) but I truly love making them.

Sooo…all that to say, I made a new blog for my baking adventures, if you will. If you would like to take a gander, head on over to pieonsunday.wordpress.com.

 

Cheers!

It’s Okay

 

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lets be honest for a moment, ive been having difficulty with what to post next. ive had so many different thoughts running through my head, you should see all of the pages i have open on my computer with all kinds of random thoughts. then theres all kinds of post its, notes and random pieces of paper all through my purse and on my desk. its been quite a month. ive also felt like anything that i have written is just not good enough but, really, who freakin cares?!? theres people posting all kinds of stupid crap online, so why not just join in

so with this, i feel like, sometimes you just need someone to tell you that its okay and that everything will be alright. i am a fan of writing letters and sending cards. call me an old lady or whatever but i love cards! im trying to bring back the art of letter writing, texts are cool and all but i love the feeling of coming home and seeing a card waiting for you in the mailbox. its like a little treasure in the midst of a sea of mailers and crap you just throw away.

so heres my letter to you wandering twenty-somethings, who may just need a bit of a hug and little encouragement to keep doing what you do….

your 20s

sometimes you feel that you are all alone in this journey

you look around and it feels like your friends have it all figured out

it appears as though they have all their shit together and are living some glorious “adult” life

and then theres you, trying to figure out what youre supposed to do

feeling like you may have missed something in life struggling to pay your billls and feeling like youre in way over your head.

when youre in several bridal showers and buying baby shower gifts for all your other friends

and then you, yourself cant even get someone to go on a freakin date with you

you have many “what the hell” moments

you think you figure out what you want to do but then the next day you want to do something completely different with your life

and in the midst of the chaos

you feel as if youre the only one going through it all

yet, ive come to find, that could not be further from the truth

over the past few weeks ive overheard conversations and spoken with a few people and

i keep noticing that they too, are in this hot mess of their 20s and they have no idea

what their doing with their lives

theres that unspoken pressure to have your shit together by your mid-twenties, get married and pop out some babies and yet they are far from that

as am i

but, let me ease your mind and let you know, its okay not to have it all together

its okay to explore and try out different things

its okay to not have that full time job

its okay to not have the biggest paychecks

its okay some people will go straight into their careers and start families.

thats cool

but then there are some of us that will have a life completely different

its okay sometimes you just need to hear that its okay that where you are in life is where you need to be at this moment

and that somehow, someway, it will all work out for the best

all in its own crazy way

if you dont do the crazy stuff now, then when will you

if you dont but that one way ticket to a foreign land now, then will you do it later in life

if you dont pack up your car and move to the other side of the country now that you are

free to do so, then when will you

 

enjoy being free

roam about without a plan

give yourself the permission to let what happens happen

let yourself be free

enjoy this

because one day

youll miss it

 

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Oh Hey!

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Yep. That’s pretty much where I am at.

I FINALLY made it to Nashville!!! After months of preparing and driving about 26 hours, I am officially here in Nashville. I am living in the one city in the US that I would want to be in. I absolutely love this city. I even love the culture shock of living in the South after living in the West Coast for so long. People are genuinely nice and it kind of freaks me out. I don’t know how to deal with it, haha.

But on to more important things.

I have decided to defer starting school until the fall. I had been thinking about for the last couple of weeks but after I had a bit of a melt down on Sunday, I made the decision to put school on hold for just a few more months. It was just a bit too stressful financially after just moving across the country. And there was just something that I was not 100% at peace with. For me, having peace of mind/heart is very important. 0f5140b92c86e9330ec772eb8fa25db5

So, now I am taking time to just be me. To settle into my new city, to enjoy life, find a decent job and enjoy what will soon be my 25th year of life. I feel as if I have just been on a massive run for the past couple of years without actually taking time to breathe and live life. I have tried to rush things for so long that now, before anything too serious happens in my life, I want to enjoy my freedom and be present in this moment.

I am learning how to be content in this moment. I am quite the dreamer, so I get caught up in my goals and plans for whats ahead that I tend to miss out on what is happening in the here and now. I also compare my journey to those around me. I see a bunch of my friends either getting married, having babies or beginning their careers and for a brief moment I felt as if I had missed something. I felt as if I was slacking and inadequate. Yet, truth is, my journey has never been the “status quo”. I’ve moved so much in my life and I’ve had to deal with some rough times early on in life that I grew up a bit faster than friends my age. I’ve always been one to do my thing even if it went against what is expected of me. I just can’t do normal. It kills me. I need space, I need freedom, I need adventure. And I fully believe that everything happens for a reason and that at the end of the day it all comes together in some crazy way.

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Every moment of my life (and yours) has been planned out and even though we may not understand everything that we have gone through, it’s all for the best. So, how all this will work out? I have not a clue. What will happen next? Who knows. That’s not for me to worry about. What I do have is this very moment right now, and I have resolved to make the best of it.

I have a couple of things that I am now working on and a few thing in mind, so we’ll just see what happens with all of that.

Here’s to having an unforgettable year and learning how to be in the present.

Ramblings from a day of packing….

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I found a picture of me standing by an airplane ride at knotts berry farm when I was about 2 years old.

For me, I have always been drawn to flying. I’ve always had the desire to just be able to fly away. to discover new lands. to meet new people. to see new things. to eat new food. to be in the new.

In about 28 hours I will be headed towards the new once again. tomorrow i shall pack my car up and wednesday at the crack of dawn, i will be headed east. off to start a new chapter in my ever evolving life. here’s to being the new kid again. here’s to discovering a new city. here’s to new roommates. here’s to working with new people.

here’s to the new.

little by little, its starting to become real. i have wanted this for so long, that it has just been a goal to work towards. i had a full time job and a part time job, i worked my ass off for months. most of those moths, hardly anyone knew. its quite difficult holding a secret such as this. i wanted to tell the world right away but i needed things to settle before making a solid announcement.

now, in just a few hours, the dream ive held so dear for the last few months will become a reality.

at this moment, im exhausted, excited, anxious, stressed, overwhelmed and a bit excited. im a bit of a hot mess really.

but this is happening.

it’ll be just about 3 years exactly that I moved to Australia. i guess January is just my moving month. starting out the new year in new places. yet, this time, i feel it is different. i must say that i have matured and grown quite a bit compared to where i was when i boarded that plane at 21. i was such a naive fool. i had no idea what i was doing. it was my first time moving out of my parents house. the first time i moved without anyone i knew. the first time i moved to a different country. crazy is a bit of an understatement.

now, i dont feel as much of a fool. though i may not know people out there nor do i know what shall be, i am expectant of the things that are to come.

it is time to live my life. to be in a place with like minded people. to be in a city where, crazy people like me, are pursuing their dreams. to live in a place with history and culture.

its time to start living out my dreams.

though i know it wont be easy, i know that it will be worth it.

i guess its part of having a gypsy soul like mine. my whole life, the longest we lived in one house was like 6 years. the longest we lived in one city was like 8 years. we have moved so much that i dont really know where to call “home”. and honestly, im ok with that. its become part of who i am. there is something in me that cant stay in one place for too long. routines and the familiar suffocate me. living in the same place, with the same people when theres a massive world out there to discover, just slowly kills me.

i need adventure. i need to explore new places. i need to meet new people. i need space. and it’s truly a need.

so now at the brink of my move and my 25th birthday in a month, i’m off.

to my dearest las vegas…although i am ready and excited for my time in nashville, i wll truly miss you. it has been a bit of a love/hate relationship. you are a city unlike any other. people from all over the world come to see you show off in so many different ways. i have met some amazing people in the time that i have lived here. people, that have truly become more like family to me. people, that have taught me a great deal and have loved me all in their own unique ways. i see many of my friends going on with their lives, getting married, having babies and pursuing their dreams, and i am truly happy for them.  with them, i leave a bit of my heart. i will miss them and think of them often. everyone has a different path and its a beautiful thing to see how each of our lives intertwine in one way or another. some people will forever stay in my life and some people will just move on but they all have had an impact on my life. i fully believe that there is something to learn from each person that comes into our lives. every person has their own story and has some sort of portion to add.

its actually a lot harder to say good bye than what i expected. for so long, all i wanted to do was to be able to say that i was done and run as fast as i could yet now, i see the good that came out of what i first believed to be the worst thing  that could have happened to me. i have leaned and grown so much. who i am today would not have happened if we never came to this crazy town. i truly am grateful for every experience and for all that i will take with me out of this long, insane season in Vegas.

‘tis bittersweet indeed.

but now it is time. time to start another journey, time to begin a whole new season. its not like anything that i have yet encountered. there are many unknowns but i know that in some crazy way, it will all work out for good just like this time in Vegas has worked out for good. if only i would have realized that at 16, lol.

and with that i am off to sleep. there is much to do in my last few hours here.

it’s time.

(if you read all of this, i do apologize, i needed to vent and this my best way of doing so)

Nashville Dreaming

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I am moving to Nashville!!!

I’m off to pursue my dream of becoming a country music artist….

JUST KIDDING!!! (I wish I could sing but maybe I’ll learn a thing or two in Nashvegas.)

I made the announcement about a month ago and I know some people are questioning as to why I am moving but it is time for me to start a new journey.

After much prayer, tears, frustration and some more prayer, I have finally decided as to what my next move will be. There were a few different options that I was considering but Nashville it shall be.

Nashville has so much culture and heart. It’s a city filled with people chasing after their dreams and desires. It’s a city with so much history and life. It’s a city that has my heart for this season. I’m not entirely sure as to how long I will stay there but what I do know is that I need to get there soon, and that’s what I shall do.

Come January 8th, I’ll have my car packed up with all my belongings and off towards the east will I drive.

Off to new adventures, off to meet new people and see new places. Off to begin a completely new chapter in my life. Off to leave the old behind and seek the new.

Although I am excited and at the same time a bit terrified of what will happen next, there is a part of me that will miss Vegas. Through these past eight years, it has brought much joy and struggle. It hasn’t always been the most amazing place to live in but it has been for the best.

We moved to Vegas when I was 16. I hated my parents for making me leave my friends and the city that I called home. But little did I know that moving here would be the best thing that could have happened to our family.

I left Vegas at the age of 21 to Australia. My hopes were to never return to Vegas but God had other plans for sure. I didn’t understand what had happened and it took me a couple of years to get on my feet again. I’ve decided that I can no longer just go through the motions and stay put. All the daily routines and nonsense are killing me inside. I am too creative and too eclectic to be content working in an office, answering phones. I have a need to create and find the beauty in ordinary things. It took me a while to figure it out but thats what I know. And so, I will begin an Interior Design course at one of the local art colleges. I can’t wait to start to learn more in an area that I am passionate about.

I will soon be 25, so I figured it’s time I get my $#!+ together and make something worthwhile happen.

How it will all work out, well that I am not totally sure but all I know is that this is the next step that I must take.

So Nashville, get ready….’cause here I come…..

 

“It’s funny how certain cities get under your skin. I’ve been around, but there’s something captivating about Nashville, Tennessee – a ‘crazy town’, as locals call it, bursting with culture, history and Southern charm (the kind of charm that prompts locals – easily the friendliest people I’ve ever encountered.”
-Brisbane News 

Let’s be honest…

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The quote above is exactly how I feel.

The other day my friend mentioned that I should start a blog. Unbeknownst to her, I had been working on this blog for the past couple of months. I took it as a confirmation that this is something that I need to focus on and make happen .

To me, writing has been one if the best ways in which I can express myself. I tend to be more quiet and although I can be quite the extrovert, I’m naturally an introvert. I need time to be by myself and to do things on my own. But the thing is, I have also never really liked for people to ready what I write.  I feel as if it is so personal and what if it’s not good enough. Yet I have decided that I need to do it anyway.  The best way to do things at times, is to do it afraid. So here we go with this.

I may fail and fall flat on my face but at least I can say I gave it a shot. And you never know, this whole thing may just work out in the end.

There are few different areas in my life that I feel like this can apply to but we’ll just have to wait and see. One step at a time.

So why not do that which terrifies you and puts you in a vulnerable place? If you never try than you will truly never know and that would be boring. Who wants a boring life anyway? If we only have one shot at this life we may as well make it into something spectacular. If all else fails, well, at least you’ll have some damn good stories to tell.

I’m in Nashville this weekend and I’ve got some ideas and what not for some posts. Just gotta find a moment to sit down and write it all out. So stayed tuned….